Musings

on the eve of my first day at a new job tomorrow, my horoscope brings good tidings!

CAPRICORN. (Dec. 21 - Jan. 18): This is a truly transformative time for you. You are finally realizing your potential in ways that you never thought you could or would.

also…just got back from i’s wedding in sf. i think i’m starting to get my mojo back. finally?

i’m officially done. i can’t believe it finally happened, but it did. and it feels so good! bittersweet? a bit but not as badly as i thought it would be. a great weight has been lifted off my shoulders. and now i know no matter what happens, i will survive. if i can make it at jd, i can make it anywhere.

7 years is a long relationship. yay me! =)

so long

farewell. this is my last night as an associate at my firm. i can’t believe i actually made it to this point. it’s surreal. and as i contemplate this last night, i’m just so exhausted and a little emotional.

for the past 8 years i’ve had a relationship with the firm. one of the longest lasting ones in my life. and as difficult and frustrating and disappointing some of those times were, i did have good times and met some really great people. bittersweet as my time has been, i will miss many things. i’m glad to be at this point but i’m also sad. i invested so much of myself in the firm and it was one of the most demanding relationships i’ve ever had. but certainly, quite rewarding.

switching jobs will be a huge pay cut but i’m approaching that with determination and a little trepidation. i can do it. i just have to adjust.

in a lot of ways i feel like a lot has been lifted with my impending departure from the firm. life is rosier and i feel lighter and happier - ready to rejoin the world i had retreated from for so long because i was sad and unhappy and depressed. i hope that lightness and openness translates to other parts of my life as well. i finally find myself hoping to find a partner to share my life with and open my feelings and heart. and i finally find myself wanting to live my life and not just exist as a shell going back and forth to the office.

am i noticeably happy because i’m leaving? or genuinely happy because it’s a new stage? maybe a little of both. whatever the case, this is all goodness and i want to embrace it.

now onto love and home. two more mountains to conquer.

(solar) eclipse of the heart

CAPRICORN. (Dec. 21 - Jan. 18): Today’s solar eclipse is extremely powerful. Its effects last a year. You can look forward to making huge strides in your life.